Reminders For When You Feel Like a Failure Before God

Hey sis! Here are some reminders for when you feel like a failure before God.

Sometimes I feel like a failure. I truly do.

There, I said it.

It’s probably not the first thing you expected to come across on a blog for Christian Women. But it’s the truth.

Sometimes, no matter how hard I try, our how good things seem, I feel like an epic failure before my God and I hate it.

Why?

Well, let me explain

Timely Reminders For When You Feel Like a Failure Before God

In July 2016 I moved from my hometown in Kingston, Jamaica to a beautiful but tiny island in Okinawa, Japan. If you google “Nowhere Texas”, you’ll have an idea of just how tiny this island is. It was a big change for me, but I moved because I needed a big change, and to be frankly honest, I was fed up of living a mediocre, wishy-washy Christin life and my walk with God was on the line.

Soon after the move, because I was bored and had nothing better to do in a small island, I started a blog called “MyDeeDeesDiary”.

After a while, this became “Daeyna.com” and after taking time off, I started my podcast “She Is A Message” which now includes the blog you’re reading right now.

So Why Do I Sometimes Feel Like A Failure Before God?

It’s really obvious when I think about it. No matter what I’ve done (or achieved) in my life, I often feel like I’m just not good enough for myself, for God, or for anyone. Either I haven’t had as much success as other people, or I find myself quitting before completing something I started.

Becoming A Course Junkie

Over the years, as I’ve struggled to figure out my purpose here on earth, I’ve found myself purchasing multiple online courses.

Everything from speaking courses to coaching to Facebook and social media. You name it and I’ve probably bought it. I’ve even been scammed in the process.

Each and every time I bought a course, I thought “Aha! This will be the answer to my prayers. This course will lead me closer to what God wants from me“. But they never did, at least, not in the way, I hoped they would.

Can you relate?

Do you ever wonder if God sees you as a failure?

Have you ever been so desperate for God and some kind of answer from home that you climbed mountains and searched all over?

Do You Know Your Identity In Christ?

Of all the courses I’ve bought in my life, I’ve only managed to finish about five. Every time I tried to finish the others, either I wasn’t in a place to do what the course required or they just weren’t a good fit.

I guess I thought that after all those courses I’d finally know who I was, and who I was always meant to be. Maybe I could become a speaker extraordinaire, giving talks all over the world or be a life coach to the stars.

It sounds a bit silly when I write it all down but for my entire life, what I could do defined exactly who I was, and that meant whenever I failed at something, a little piece of me died inside. Until God stepped in and set the record straight. If we feel like a failure then we need to learn something from God.

It wasn’t an easy or smooth road in the least, but over time God began to show me who I was. Not only did He show me who He had created me to be, God told me what I was and where I was in my life. The truth is that I needed to seek Him.

God made it clear that I was His daughter and that superseded any other identity the world had to offer.

At first, I didn’t like it because I felt like being the daughter of a King wasn’t enough. Where was my two-page resume filled with all the lives I had impacted? And where was my Nobel peace prize?

You might be feeling the same way.

How Do You Find Your Identity In Christ?

I have a friend who is an incredible mom to her kids. She is a wife, an entrepreneur, and yet she struggles to figure out who she is on a daily basis. Is she a wife? A mom? A teacher? Or is she something more?

Ultimately, she found out that her true identity lay in whose she was. She needed to remind herself of what God said whenever she felt she had failed Him.

It’s Time To Take Back Control

We live in a world that seeks to define us by its own pre-determined standards. The best people are the ones with the biggest houses, the fanciest car and the fattest paychecks. But is that true? Is that really all we, as Christians, can hope for?

Can you still be a good person when you have nothing material to show for it?

Of course. The bible says in Romans 12:2 that we shouldn’t be conformed to this world or its patterns and that we should be transformed by the renewing of our minds. We are also told in Philippians 3:13-14 that “Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”

What does this mean for us?

When I think about it, I believe the bible is telling us to listen less to what the movies, celebrities, songs and TV shows are telling us, and more to what God’s word tells us.

The bible tells us that:

We are a chosen generation (1 Peter 2:9)

We’re no longer slaves (Galatians 4:7)

We are alive in Christ (Ephesians 2:4-5)

We’re deeply loved by God (Galatians 2:20)

We are precious in God’s eyes (Isaiah 43:4)

We’re God’s special possession (1 Peter 2:9-10)

We are citizens of heaven (Philippians 3:20-21)

And there are plenty more where those promises came from.

If these Bible verses don’t give you a glimpse into who God says you are I don’t know what will.

A Reminder For When You Feel Like A Failure Before God

The song that has become my anthem as I hold on to God during this season of my life is “I Know Who I Am” by Sinach.

My favourite parts of the song are:

“We are a chosen generation.

We’ve been called forth to show His excellence.

All I require for life God has given me and I know who I am.

I know who God says I am, what He says I am,

Where He says I’m at. I know who I am.”

I woke up with this song on my heart a few days before the interview I had to get a visa I needed to travel.

By the time this is published I’d have already settled in my life there and it’s all because of who my Heavenly Father is.

Throughout this visa process, God has constantly been reminding me of who I am. He’s been sending me word after word to calm my fears and doubts. He has sent people to remind of who I am and I’m here to remind you of who you are too.

Using the words of Sinach I can proudly declare to you that:

“You are holy. You are righteous.

You are so rich. You are beautiful.

You are working in power.

You are working miracles.

You live a life of favour because you know who you are”

And most importantly whose you are.

Jesus Didn’t Need Earthly Recognition

Jesus didn’t require earthly recognition for all that He had done, for Him who He was. Even if He had never been seen walking on water or working miracles that would not have changed His identity.

That would not have changed who Jesus was and will always be-the Son of God, the Messiah, Emmanuel.

Even if you never do anything hugely groundbreaking with your life, that doesn’t change who you are, my sister.

So yeah.

Sometimes I feel like a failure before God; like I’ve wasted precious time, talent and money going nowhere.

But whenever I do feel that way, whenever I do feel I’ve failed God and my brain tries to logically lead me astray, I remember the words that Sinach wrote.

I remember that my walk with Christ requires me to walk by faith and not by feelings.

I have to remember that all I can do is my best and let God’s grace do the rest.

I remember to not lean on my own understanding but to trust in the Lord.

I realize whose I am.